This Short Story was previously published in Manushi.
“Damru!”
“Yes memsahib?” Damru rushed over
to Devki, his gamchha in his hands.
“Tell the khaansama that I will make
the kheer myself. And tell him not to overcook the rice...”
“Yes memsahib,” grinned Damru. “I
know Anurag baba doesn’t like his rice soft and squishy.”
“Yes, go now.”
Devki turned to Suman, who was
adjusting the cutlery on the dining table. “Suman, get that duster
and come with me. I want to make sure Anu's room is spick and span.
You know how finicky he is.”
“Yes memsahib.”
Devki was excited. Her son was coming
from the States after five long years. She couldn't wait to see him
again. He must have lost some weight, she was sure. She would pull his ears and
chide him for not taking good care of himself.
She was brimming with questions.
Questions about his life in America, about his friends, about America
itself. She had not set foot outside her village in the last five
years, let alone travel abroad. Her childhood had been spent in a
small home in Delhi. Unlike some of her cousins, she'd been fortunate
enough to go to school up to the tenth grade. However, soon after her
board exams, she had been married into a progressive Choudhari family
that lived in the village of Madanpur.
It had not taken her much time to
adjust to life in the village. It had moved happily enough until her
son Anurag turned five and started attending the village school, the
only school in the entire village. The children there were unruly and
the teachers harassed and weary.
Anurag had no future in Madanpur, Devki
realised one day, as she watched him idling his time playing pithu
with Ramu. She would send him to a boarding school in Delhi, she decided.
Anurag’s father was doubtful.
“He might become wayward, staying away from home.”
“Well, he’s not going to become an
officer, playing on the streets all day, that’s for sure,” Devki
retorted.
Anurag’s father had reluctantly
agreed.
The first time Anurag came back from
the hostel for his holidays, Devki noticed a change in him. He had
stopped making a fuss about his food. On the contrary, he devoured
everything that was on his plate within minutes. She could see he was
still hungry, but was embarrassed to ask his own mother for more. She quietly placed a couple of chapattis on his plate and
refilled his bowls with curry and raita, to which he whispered, "thank you." Devki lovingly patted his head. She got a strange
satisfaction watching him lick his fingers.
He had not wanted to go back to school
after the holidays and had clung to her, making the parting even more
painful. With a pang she wondered if she was doing the right
thing in sending him away. But she saw no future for him in Madanpur.
That was the last time he cried at the
time of leaving. His face would sometimes crumple up and she could
see that he was making an effort to hold back the tears, but hold
them back, he did.
Initially, his letters had arrived
every Saturday with clockwork regularity, written in a neat hand on
lined paper. They had to copy it from the board during letter-writing
period every Monday, she had learned, sitting self-consciously in the
meticulously tidy school parlour...
“Madam, should we go home or to
baba’s school first?” the driver had asked Devki.
“No no. Let’s go to Anu’s school
first. We’ll go to my parents’ house later.”
She was tired and worn out by the long journey, but it
vanished as the pointed steeples of Anurag's school came into view.
She hastily gathered her hair and tied them into a bun as the car
came to a halt.
Devki and Anurag sat quietly in the
school parlour. “I have brought two crates of ripe mangoes from our
orchard for you and your friends as well as some pure ghee and
pickle.”
Anurag was embarrassed. Averting his
gaze he said, “Ma, next time ask me before bringing anything to
school.”
“But you love them,” Devki
protested. She had expected him to be pleased. “Every summer you
squat in the courtyard and polish off half a dozen in one go.”
“But Ma, nobody brings such things to
school.” Seeing his mother’s sullen face, he fell silent. They
said very little after that. Devki looked at her son and then looked
around. He was neatly dressed in a white shirt, grey trousers and the
maroon school blazer.
The parlour had wall-to-wall carpets.
The settees and armchairs were neatly arranged around a coffee table.
There was a cross on the opposite wall and a painting of some angels
and cherubs on the adjoining wall. Just below the painting stood a
piano. Devki realised with a sense of horror that her immaculately
dressed child fitted in very well with the background.
While she looked conspicuously out of
place, in her rumpled up sari creased from the journey and her untidy
bun. Besides, the sindoor in her hair, the huge kumkum bindi on her
forehead, the red and green bangles and the ugly toe rings, gave her
a rustic look that set her apart from the other mothers present in
the room.
Next time she must remember to get
dressed before coming here, she told herself. But then she had been
so excited about seeing her child again, she had simply not
bothered...
Devki sighed. Life had become one long
wait after she had sent her child to boarding school. She had spent
twelve years of her life, waiting for his letters every Saturday and
waiting for him every Christmas and summer holidays, when she would
prepare all his favourite meals and snacks. Each time he left for
school, she felt he was moving further away from her. The house would
go empty and quiet without him. She would spend hours in his room,
straightening his sheets, talking to his photograph, hugging his
pillow and touching all his prized possessions.
Once when he was home for Christmas,
Devki went to his room. He lay on his tummy, feet in the air, reading
a book. “Anu, your Sudha aunty was telling me that a lot of
bullying goes on in boarding schools?”
“Oh, Ma, don’t worry about all
that.”
“Nobody has been bullying you, no?”
“Ma, I'm in class seven. Don’t you
think it’s a little too late for you to be asking that question?”
he replied, then went back to his book.
Devki had spent a sleepless night
wondering if Anurag had indeed been bullied when he was little. What
if the older boys had made him, Anurag Choudhari, the zamindar’s
son, polish their shoes and run errands for them? What if they had
teased and taunted him and called him names? Maybe that was the
reason why he had clung to her and refused to go back to school. But
as Anurag himself pointed out, it was much too late...
Anurag had been a diligent student and
had won several gold and silver medals throughout his school years.
He had gone on to do his graduation in commerce from a famous college
in New Delhi.
And then he had won a scholarship to do
a Ph.D. in America. Her heart had swelled with pride when she had
gone to the airport to see him off.
At first his letters came regularly,
sometimes even twice a week. They were full of news of life abroad.
He wrote about the fast food, the fast cars, the tall glass
buildings, the huge expressways and the air that was wonderfully
clean. He had taken up a studio apartment on the tenth floor, with a
breathtaking view. She would read every one of them again and again,
till she knew every word, every comma by heart.
Her letters, on the other hand, were
boring and repetitive. Life in Madanpur was slow and easy-going, the
heat making everyone all the more languid and lazy. So apart from how
much milk Lalli was giving or how good the crops were that year, and
enquiring about his health, there was not much else to write.
Madanpur was one of those villages that were the last to feel the
winds of change. The last time something spectacular had happened,
was three years back when television had finally arrived at Madanpur.
She had proudly informed Anurag that theirs had been the first home
to have it installed.
And then her husband had died suddenly
of lung cancer. His passion for hookah, or gur-guri as Anurag called
it, had cost him his life. She, who had been happy within the
confines of her home and kitchen, suddenly found herself the
caretaker of her husband’s immense wealth. Somehow, she had managed
to take care of the farms and orchards and other ancestral property.
But enough. Now that Anurag was coming back home for good, he would
take over his father’s properties and affairs and she would finally
get some respite.
A horn sounded. Devki hastily
straightened the tablecloth and rushed to the door. She remained
rooted to the threshold as a young man stepped out of the car,
touched her feet and hugged her. Devki did not react, but merely
stared. The young man, who stood before her, wasn’t the lad she had
waved goodbye to at the Indira Gandhi Airport, five years back. He
was now a man, a total stranger! His haircut, his slick suede jacket
and matching suede shoes, his walk, the way he gesticulated as he
spoke, his accent – they had all changed. Devki was speechless. She
forgot all that she had intended to ask him.
Devki gave Anurag a second helping of
bhindi. “This year, I'm thinking of having a big celebration for
Diwali. Ever since your father died two years back, we have not
celebrated any festival.”
“But Ma, I'm going back to America
next month,” said Anurag, as he held out the steel tumbler.
Devki stopped pouring water into the
tumbler and looked at her son. “But I thought you had completed
your studies?”
“Yes Ma, my thesis is complete. But
now I’ve been offered a lecturer’s job at MIT. It is one of the
best universities in America and only a fool would turn down such an
offer.”
“But the village needs you. I need
you. Am getting too old to take care of your father’s affairs. It
was easier when he was alive, but now...” She paused and wiped her
eyes with the edge of her pallu. “If it's teaching you want to do,
you can run the village school.”
“Yeah, right. Ma, my friends will
laugh at me if I tell them I chucked my job at MIT to become a
village school teacher.”
Devki turned her back to Anurag. “I’ll
go and see why it’s taking Damru so long to serve the kheer,” she
mumbled and left the room.
Devki switched on the TV, took out her
knitting needles and started knitting furiously. So all those dreams
of her boy returning home for good were for nothing.
Why, she had even planned to get him
married by the end of that year. How many days had she spent planning
her only child’s wedding? It would be a grand affair, she had
decided. The entire path would be covered with red carpets from the
gate, right up to the main entrance. And the bride and groom would be
served their meal in a silver platter, with silver bowls and spoons,
all of which would be prepared especially for the occasion, with the
bride and the groom’s names engraved on them. And there would be
feasting and dancing for one whole week. Everybody in the village
would join in the festivities...And soon the lonely mansion would
echo with laughter and the pattering of little feet...
Maybe she had been wrong in sending
Anurag to a boarding school. If she hadn’t sent him there, he would
not have won the scholarship to study abroad and then none of this
would have happened. She should have kept him at home with her like
Ramu’s mother had.
Anurag walked into the room. Devki did
not turn around. Anurag tugged at her sari, like he used to do when
he was little. “Come on Ma, say yes. You know I'll never do
anything without your ashirwaad.”
Devki reluctantly said “Okay,” in a
low voice, keeping her eyes glued to the TV.
Anurag hugged her from behind. “I
love you,” he whispered.
Absent-mindedly, Devki cleaned her ear
with the end of her knitting needle. Anurag’s father had scolded
her on several occasions, saying it was dangerous, but whenever
agitated, she would revert to her old habit, just like a smoker who
has recently quit smoking. Maybe Anurag was right. What future did he
have here? And his job in America at MIE.. or was it MIT? She wasn’t
sure. Well, it did sound prestigious. She remembered how Anurag’s
eyes had flashed when he spoke about it - like the tantric’s, who
lived at the edge of Madanpur.
Devki was in the aangan, knitting a wee
little bootie. She was lost in her thoughts when somebody cleared his
throat. She looked up.
It was Ramu, Anurag’s childhood
friend. “Pranam Mausi. I’ve left the rice in the pantry. Bauji
said we’ll deliver the ghee and flour tomorrow.”
Devki smiled at him. He was a simple
country bumpkin who had not yet lost his baby fat. A little too
awkward and gawky. He came forward and touched her feet.
“Get two kilos of laddoos made with
pure ghee tomorrow. I have to take them to the temple," said Devki. "Just got a
letter from Anu... Alice is in the family way.”
“Congratulations, Mausi. Now you too
will be a grandmother.”
Devki smiled as she looked at the
half-knit bootie.
“I’d better be going," said Ramu. My tyre got
punctured on the way. I had to literally carry the bike to Heera's
shop. Took me over an hour to get there. Then Heera didn’t have a
spare tyre so it took him two hours to sort out my bike. Mother must
be going out of her mind. You know how she worries...”
Devki shook her head. “You're the
father of three kids and still scared of your mother?”
Ramu gave an embarrassed grin and
shuffled to the door, his cheap muddy slippers making a clicking
sound as he walked.
Devki wiped her brow, put away the
unfinished bootie and moved towards the
pooja ghar. It was getting dark, time for her evening prayers. As she
lit a diya before the gods, she thought about Devki, Lord Krishna’s
mother, after whom she'd been named. She too had sent her son away.
Why were there so many songs in praise of Yasodha’s love for
Krishna and none in praise of Devki? she wondered.
©Hansa Dasgupta 2017
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